So I know what it was all about, that Casey texted me for. He is pissed off at me 'cause he thought I lied to him about crap and he thought I was wanting him to have pity on me. That was a slap in the face. God, you know that I talked to him and Kaleb for different reasons. I learned so much from them both. I looked up to them like brothers. Now they are both gone and I'm alone, abandoned, once again. This time it hurts so much more though. Am I a bad person? Lord, I'm trying to rest in you, but I can't keep having people walk out on me. Especially right now. This is the time I need you and them most! What do I do? I'm lost and hurt.