Thank you for calming me down

God, I'm stressing out! The Air Force just left Tiffany J's house for questioning and a friend called when I was at work and then Myles Allen texted me about counseling. Lord, I give it all to you!

Lord, things remain the same. Things are still crappy, but you are still amazing! Last night scared me though, the thoughts of suicide entered my mind. I just didn't wanna live anymore, please get these thoughts away. Also, two days ago Ryan R. said some things to me while we were throwing a party for his sister, Katie, because she was turning 20, and the things he said made me question how he really felt about me and if he even cares and if he only has me around so he can tell people that he saved my life. So I typed him up a Facebook message and told him about how I felt about that, I guess it's up to him if our friendship ends here. I don't want it to, but I'm also not a trophy on display. Please be with me Lord.