I'm coming to you right now Lord. I'm hurt... I'm lost... I don't want to be alive anymore. God, I just wish you would take me. I can't keep having people I look up to leave. Jacob J. blocked me on Facebook, for reasons unknown. What a huge blow that is Lord! Why the heck do people keep leaving?? Am I just that messed up that no one wants to be around me? And why, each time, it hurts this much? I'm close to ending it all right now... do you wanna stop me? Lord, he was the one Christina I had left to talk to... everyone else has peaced out. I'm ready to also! There is no point of me being here if I feel this alone all the time. I'm at work right now, almost in tears.. Kristine doesn't even wanna talk to me! WHAT DO I DO LORD!? I can't go on anymore. I'm trying, but I can't.