I'm driving home right now and had to pull over on the side of the road because I can't stop crying. I don't understand how someone could care about me. Right when I was ready to give up and throw it all away, he pops into my life.

I've been sitting up at Battleground Fitness for a good hour juts observing Chad and everyone here. Brooke, an old friend that I knew when I lived in Denton, came in. She reminded me of who I used to be and what I used to be like when I was living there.. I really have come a long way. I think I needed to be reminded of that. These last couple weeks have been one huge blur for me. I've been losing myself hardcore.