I'm up at Battleground Fitness right now. I feel so safe here, like all of my cares and worries just go away. As I was writing the date, I just realized I got arrested twice this month.. wow! I feel like so much has been stolen from me. What happened to that small town kid? The one that ran when everyone walked. The one that never second guessed anything. The one that didn't care if people were watching. I used to never feel the bruises put on me from people and laughed when I fell down. I would bounce back from every lose. I was always the first to say, "I love you" to people. I love like it wasn't ever going to hurt... what happened to me? I  became not only afraid of people, but afraid of myself as well. I cringe when people say "I love you" to me. I don't let myself get vulnerable because I'm afraid of the bruises. I want to be that kid again. I feel like the city life has changed me for the worst. What's cool is that I'm starting to have hope come back into my life. I feel like a good change is coming, even though my current circumstances say otherwise. I think true healing begins when you come to where you are broken within. That's what I'm starting to do.