Holy cow Lord! So much to say.. I guess I'm going to start with saying thank you for putting Bryan W. in my life. I really let him in today and told him about my thought of suicide last night. I didn't expect for what he said next. He was hurt, he told me it would mess him up. He told me he looked up to me and that I've been helping him. He told me that I've been holding him accountable for some things. I can tell he trusts me.. that means so much! He also opened up (which is why I opened up) and told me he had sex today. He felt bad about it. I'm glad he can put trust in me and tell me something so personal to him. Lord, I pray that you be with him and that you help him conquer his addiction in drinking  and his lustful temptations with girls and sex. I also pray that I can continue being a light for him.. It is in your awesome name I pray!

Lord, where did all the fire go? Why am I deeply depressed? I don't want to live anymore.