I’m sitting here in the airport waiting to get on my flight to St. Louis. This trip is going to be so bitter sweet. I’m excited that I get to go home and see some familiar places and faces, but the downfall is that I’m only there for 3 days and I’m going because of my grandma’s funeral. I haven’t seen a lot of these folks in a long time. I honestly don’t even know if I’m excited to see them or not. I feel like these people aren’t ever in my life. I don’t feel like I’m a part of this family. Lol, I never really felt like I belonged with them… heck, have I ever felt like I belonged anywhere? Just recently I started to realize how much I long to feel a part of something.. I just need to figure out what that something is. I’ve never felt so alone in my life.