Lord, I'm so sorry for my absence in my prayer life. You have no idea how much your helping me through this hard time. Thank you for bringing me Ben C. into my life. I spent this weekend at his house here in Hillsboro. I'm so thankful for letting me witness just how a Christian family functions. They are so loving! I opened up to Ben last night... about everything. For the first time, I felt safe being venerable and crying. I'm learning so much from him. He has so much love. In a way I feel like I don't even deserve a friend like this. Lord, you are so good to me, even though I suck as a person. Although I don't know why I'm going through all this, I DO know your keeping me safe. Thank you for that! Thank you for my job, my car, Sam and Jenny, thank you for music Lord. I'm laying down here watching Bed read in Exodus. He has such a deep love for you Lord. I wanna be there. I wanna know more of you! I wanna have people ask why I'm so different, and I wanna reply with your name. I give all thanks to you. I wanna have a Christian family. I want everyone to love you. I wanna love you and be in your word more Lord. I wanna pray more. I can do all this with you!