I'm sitting at CFNI again. Handing with Johnny wasn't bad, but I don't think he is someone I can look up to as a mentor. I really want a group of Christian guys to be around. I need community so bad. I don't want to go through life alone anymore. I'm really to let people in, even if it's going to get me hurt.

Today I was supposed to meet up with Johnny P. at 10am but then he pushed it back to grab lunch because of a meeting... then he told me to be at his place at 1:45 and that he already ate. This makes me really not want to meet up at all...