I have never felt more accepted in my life as I do in these past 24 hours. Viviana, Lucas' friend, gave me a Valentine's Day card. Lucas shot me a text this morning... these people seem pretty legit!

Day 2 at the Linger Conference. I got here at 7:30 and was literally the first person here other thank two workers. It's so quiet! I decided to break the silences with thoughts of prayer. I don't know what God is doing in my life, but I do know good things are about to be happening. I am truly blessed to have the mentor I have. He keeps me growing and keeps my eyes focused on God. I am thankful that I have two jobs so I can afford food, gas, and bills again. Good things are finally happening.

Still at Longer and Ben Stuart is talking about anxiety. I never realized how stressed I always am. I feel like I'm constantly being pushed to a breaking point. A point where I start to feel unloved, unwanted, and suicidal. I want to break this pattern.

I met a guy named Lucas C, he introduced me to his group of friends and we all sat together for lunch. I don't know if this is a prayer answered of a lesion learned. Either way, God is really speaking to me during this conference.

I wish I had a close Christian brother. I wish I had Christian friends. I'm tired of being alone.

I'm texting Chad right now, during these amazing Chick-fil-a videos, and asked if we could hang after. He said he needs to do family time. I'm not mad or upset, but it just made me really wish I had a family. I think it just put me into a small depression

It's crazy how much my life has been turning around, thanks to Chad, thanks to God. I just got a second job. I'm at Chick-fil-a again. I'm actually watching orientation videos right now. I'm also going to a stewardship class at Gateway. Things are finally turning around!