Lord, what has been going on lately!? It seems like the sun is shining even when the rain is pouring down... in other words, life and everything in it is so crappy right now, but you are still good and you have blessed me with so much that (for the most part) I take for granted.  Yes, all this stuff is going on, but I can see when the blind can't. I can run and walk when people are confined to wheel chairs. I can talk and sing when there is mute people! Thank you so much for all of this and everything I forgot to mention. Everyone walks out on me but you stay here beside me!

I talked to Jev's mom today on his aim (anightinthetank). She isn't doing good, please be with her and the rest of the family. Also with Cait, she is so heart broken.

So I know what it was all about, that Casey texted me for. He is pissed off at me 'cause he thought I lied to him about crap and he thought I was wanting him to have pity on me. That was a slap in the face. God, you know that I talked to him and Kaleb for different reasons. I learned so much from them both. I looked up to them like brothers. Now they are both gone and I'm alone, abandoned, once again. This time it hurts so much more though. Am I a bad person? Lord, I'm trying to rest in you, but I can't keep having people walk out on me. Especially right now. This is the time I need you and them most! What do I do? I'm lost and hurt.

Lord, I don't know what to think anymore. C. Peterson used to be such a great friend of mine, but now he is like a stranger. The last time I talked to him was when Sarah passed. I have called and texted since then and he just now texted back saying "hey, what's up"... I donno!? What IS up?

What a great day at work today! Thanks so much for making it happen, I really needed it! Thanks!!

Lord, these last few days hasn't been easy, but I can also tell that you are making it easier for me. You are bringing so many cool people into my life. J. Johnson, to mention one, is one of the coolest persons I've met. We just met up at Bread Co. today and we had a great conversation about you. He is taking so much time to talk to me and be here for me. M. Horton took me under his wing and gave me a place to stay. Hay Wah is here for/with me every hard step of the way. There is so much your doing to make my life easier. It's making these days easier. I may not know why I'm going through the things I am right now, but I know it's all in your hands and it's for the better. Lord, I will rest in that and I will rest in you. I love you!

Lord, I can't even sleep anymore. I just stay in bed all day. I can't believe all this is going on. To add fuel to the fire, V. Kimberlin told me not to talk to him anymore. He says I should "be a man" and "get over it." He also thinks I'm gay. Maybe that's the real reason he stopped talking to me. Thanks Lord, for having one more person walk out on me! It can't get any better than this!