Also Lord, I'm struggling right now. I'm so stressed and my attitude is negative. I'm having thoughts of suicide. I just wish everything would just go away. I pray that you take these weights off my shoulders Lord. Please!

Hey Lord! I watched Cutthroat (Realworld/Roadrules Challenge) on MTV and saw this dude named Dan Walsh on there, he is a recovering alcoholic and I was really inspired on how he could be in a house with so many people drinking and still stay sober, I sent him a message on Facebook yesterday and he replied back today. Kinda cool how he took the time to do that when he doesn't even know who I am!

You're awesome Lord!

Sorry it's been a while since I've written in this. A lot has happened lately. Brittany H, from work, came to church with me last Wednesday. Something clicked with her and hopefully she starts reading the bible she got!

Holy cow Lord! So much to say.. I guess I'm going to start with saying thank you for putting Bryan W. in my life. I really let him in today and told him about my thought of suicide last night. I didn't expect for what he said next. He was hurt, he told me it would mess him up. He told me he looked up to me and that I've been helping him. He told me that I've been holding him accountable for some things. I can tell he trusts me.. that means so much! He also opened up (which is why I opened up) and told me he had sex today. He felt bad about it. I'm glad he can put trust in me and tell me something so personal to him. Lord, I pray that you be with him and that you help him conquer his addiction in drinking  and his lustful temptations with girls and sex. I also pray that I can continue being a light for him.. It is in your awesome name I pray!

Lord, where did all the fire go? Why am I deeply depressed? I don't want to live anymore.

Praise you Lord! Casey and I met up at Starbucks yesterday morning and we chatted and chilled. We are talking about going to a haunted house this month.. things are better between us now. Today at 6, I'm going to his church and he is going to lead worship.. I can't wait to praise you Lord! Also, thanks for bringing him back into my life. I didn't think he was ever gonna talk to me again, which sucked cause I thought of him as a brother.